Bahagia itu, dimana-mana.

"Is there suffering on this new earth? 

On our earth we can truly love only with suffering and through suffering!

We know not how how to love otherwise. We know no other love.

I want suffering in order to love"

-Dostoevsky's

The Dream of a Ridiculous Man

Singkat cerita, saya pulang (lagi) dari Jatinangor karena kosan masih sepi banget. Saya melanjutkan perjalanan pulang kerumah pake angkot karena travelnya turun di Jatiwaringin. Waktu mau naik, saya ngeh ada anak laki-laki kecil, rambutnya klimis berponi, pake baju putih duduk sebelah abangnya. 

Lalu begini, kalian mungkin ngga melihat ada 'apa apa' di foto ini (karena pas jepret angkotnya goyang-goyang dumang). But,i was somehow, touched.

Belum lama naik saya jadi tau kalo anak kecil itu anaknya si abang sopir, yang lucu banget karena bawel, tapi saya ngga denger jelas apa yang diomongin si anak. Lebih lama saya di dalem, saya juga jadi tau ternyata si anak ngomong pake bahasa jawa sama bapaknya, jelas aja saya ngga ora ngartos! 

Selama di jalan, saya suka cengenges sendiri gegara celetukan si anak yang polos, yet makes him funny! Beberapa kali anak ini ngerengek, tapi saya ngga ngerti dia ngomong apa, kayaknya minta sesuatu sama Bapaknya. Si sopir pun selalu bisa nenangin anaknya in a very kind, gentle, and funny way, tanpa harus marah sama si anak. Ternyata,

A(anak) : Ayah aku mau beli kinderjoy

B(bapak) : iya entar ya di pondok aja okeh, tunggu sewa(penumpang) ayah turun dulu

A: enggamau, maunya di indomaret aja

B: iya kan di giant di pondok juga ada dek, sama aja..

A: ah engga mau, ngga di giaaaaant 

(anaknya diem)

(nunduk, kucek kucek mata.... nangis)

B: kan..mulai deh.. giant sama indomaret apa beda nya toh dek kan sama aja jual kinderjoy, udah udah jangan sedih dong, mosok gitu aja sedih. emang mau beli berapa?

A: dua!

B: yowes ayah beliin tiga! kalo dua tangannya gimana?

Foto di atas adalah saat mereka lagi tos setelah make a deal! That probably not a thing for you, but what i am trying to say is that i saw happiness, comfort, affection in them. Which is very modest yet, very real. His job he do for him, his wife, his children, lets say, just enough for his family, or maybe not really. All the work he had done, he suffers in order to love. This kind of sighting may reminds you of your relationship with your family. In how, maybe, you are not as close, as intimate as this driver guy and his children. You're maybe greater in every kind of thing than this family i saw, but you know the greatest thing about family is the sacrifice, fidelity, affection and love you surrounded by and your members give, in anykind of ways you cant see. I dont say my family is perfect, it is probably way below it, any imperfections sometimes give more bigger things, anyway. I am just happy to see that.